My Life Is Full Of Shi(f)t
"If there's one thing that we know about life that will never change , it's that it's always changing, always shifting. Our life is full of Shi(f)t. We can embrace it or resist it." - Bernicia Barre
I chose to embrace it. I let go, let God. I've grown the most when I let go of the rules, the control of how things are supposed to go. I threw myself into the shift that was happening in my life.
Don't get me wrong, I've always had a need to control all the things that occurred in my life. From making the right decision when it came to my job occupation to how my relationship with my significant other is supposed to go.
Newsflash! Life isn't linear. There are some many roads and paths to your purpose, your destiny, to a life fulfilled.
Looking back over just the last 5 years of my life, shit and shift has happened. Instead of fighting it, I immersed myself in the shift that was happening, and left the shit that occurred in the rearview.
For those of you who don't know, I got laid off from my first full-time job a little after I graduated college. I had moved to NYC and within 6 months I was right back at my parents house in PG County. I thought it was the end to my career. I was so embarrassed and felt like a failure to myself, my family and everyone who supported me. In the moment, you think that everything in the universe is working against you. You beat yourself up because you could've...should've... would've done x,y,z if you had training from your company or a better manager. You complain and play the blame game.
After 5 months of unemployment and a slight case of what I like to call early career depression, I received an offer at Turner Broadcasting Inc. in New York City.
Now, imagine getting an offer right back in the city that just ate you up and spit you back out. I was beyond nervous and scared to take this new opportunity knowing there was a possibility that the exact same thing that happened to me before in my first job could happen again.
When I tell you that when you have nothing else left, you've got God. Chile, when he has a plan for you, it is for you. He will remove things that are no longer serving you or helping you grow. You may think that was you end all be all, but he has something bigger and better. I couldn't see it when I was laid off from my first job, but then 5 months later I got a job offer from one of the top television media companies.
I worked at Turner Broadcasting Inc. for 2 years and 4 months in the Entertainment Sales division. I learned a lot of about the business, met some lifelong friends and established some business relationships that I would continue to grow in my current position at USA TODAY. If I wasn't laid off, if I wasn't forced to take a step back in my life, I wouldn't have made it too this point in my life. I could still be in a kiss-to-death job, miserable and growing grey hairs.
I look back at my career path and thank God for all the detours, roadblocks and even allowing me to run out of gas in my vehicle. I had to go through being fired, moving back to Maryland and starting my career over in order to truly understand that I am stronger that my circumstance.
You never know how strong you are or how much you've grown, until you go through some shit. Whether it be work-related, money-related or even family/relationship related. God wouldn't bring you to it, if he wasn't going to see you through it.
Wherever you are in your life, personally or professionally, embrace the shi(f)t that happens. For it is through the ever-changing landscape of you life that you are molded into the person God has intended you to be.